Yesterday was feeling pretty low.
And it wasn’t because you guys didn’t react well to the new stuff, or because sales are down, or something like that... I think I was just feeling, for a lack of a better word, a failure. Constantly getting behind on responding to emails and fulfilling orders, struggling to create decent content, rushing to get new products on the site, letting down all our prospective ambassadors because I guaranteed a response date that I could not meet. There are so many things I would like to add to this business, but sometimes it feels like I’m walking through mud. God has gifted me with this incredible opportunity and sometimes I just don’t feel up to it. I STILL feel inadequate when people ask me what I do for work. It takes a lot of convincing before someone will actually look at this as anything more than just a fun side-hustle. I think some of that negativity has found its way into my own head. Sometimes I forget that there are over 20,000 people here that do care, do believe in this mission, and at the very least, like something that we’ve produced (whether that’s a product or content).
As we’ve grown, I’ve shied away from doing posts like this. But I think that’s a mistake. My dream and vision for this company has always included this kind of genuineness. It allows you to see that underneath the mask of a “business”, we’re really just people here too... we struggle, sin, doubt, get sad, get overwhelmed... but despite that, we are loved and accepted by God. I’m truly just a lost ragamuffin, swerving back and forth as I walk towards being like Jesus. He loves me and He loves you. Im so stoked to have been given this opportunity to walk with you all towards Him.